Have you ever watched tv and seen those commercials for St. Judes and so forth. Seen those beautiful children on there so full of life and happiness even though today could very well be their last.?. I sink so low when I see or read stories about those beautiful children. It brings tears to my eyes just writing about it. Ahhh, those beautiful children... You know when I see those children other then feeling the love and adoration for them and the wanting; the longing to be with them and just love on them and know them... I think to myself. "Henry... what have you done with your life?" I mean really? What HAVE I done with my life? I have survived living on this earth for almost 27 years now when the doctors told me I wouldn't. I have been through struggles, pain, abuse, drugs, heartache, death, torment, anger, depression, physical/mental/sexual abuse, among a few hardships as a youth. I have traveled all over from this coast to Mississippi, Missouri, Wisconsin, tip of the Baja California, La Paz, Cabo San Lucas, among other places. I have had SO many jobs from being a janitor to driving trucks and heavy equipment. Helped with the starting of a California Youth Connections organization here in Redding, CA for foster youth to have a voice. Helped in the planning process to make Foster Care a better place here in Shasta County. Been to the state capitol several times trying to promote ideas to become bills and maybe someday law. I know that I have touched the hearts of so many people along the way whether they be bad or good. Mostly good I hope!! :) Although I have done more then this I still feel like I have done nothing. I feel as if I have somehow failed. Some of you here may know me personally and I love you so much, but for those who don't I ask that you try. I love you. I mean that! I do! People are in your life for either a long term or short term reason. I pray that my presence may be long standing impression if just a short one. Whether I am here for a short term or forever in your life I pray that you may know my heart regardless. Now, please understand that though I may fear death please understand that I will be very excited to be with my Father in heaven. I am writing this only because it is on my heart. Are you living life? Are you making an impression in someone's life? Is it good or bad? I pray that you truly do live life to the fullest that you can! I hope that at the days end you may say that the impression you left on this world, in the hearts of others, in those you loved, is one of true love. Never strive to achieve the meaningless things, money, power, human items... No instead strive for love, honor, integrity, valor... LIFE! Know that life is a fragile gift that we are blessed with. You were put here for a reason. You were meant to come into my life, and so many others, for a purpose. I only hope that for my part that I show you nothing but the deepest love and adoration that I have within me. I deeply care about you. I love you so very much. You are so special to me. I hope that I show you that you mean the world to me.
Love,
Henry Havens
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